Thursday, July 19, 2012
A Peaceful Remembrance
Six years ago yesterday, July 18, marks the day that my mama passed away. It still seems surreal just typing the words. It's so hard to believe that she isn't here with us anymore. It certainly doesn't feel right and probably never will. It's amazing how, in spite of it all, life goes on. After she died, everyone told me, "it will get easier with time." I didn't believe them. However, I will say now that it does get a tiny bit easier. You learn to move past the heartache to more a peaceful remembrance. I still feel like she is with me and I'm reminded of it when I download photos off my camera and see one like this.
Someone remarked that the picture looked like a painting -- and it does, kind of. I am no stellar photographer, that's for sure. It's just that the universe aligned to capture a moment in time almost perfectly. I can hear Mama saying, "Ooh, I want to paint this one!" And she would have because she pretty much did anything she set her mind to. It gives me comfort thinking that maybe she somehow helped to orchestrate this picture -- the love of her life and a grandson she never met. Maybe that sounds hokey, but who cares. Deep down, I know she is infinitely happy in her new life. It doesn't stop me from wanting her here. Somehow, this picture reminds me that she is and she always will be with me -- until we meet again.